i am not afraid

Oh hi, it's me again. I guess I just have a lot to say these days. I spend a lot of time with my thoughts. Quiet moments while I run, when I'm at work, when I'm cleaning my room- every day presents a number of moments in which I find myself solely in the company of my own thoughts. So I guess you could say I've had a lot of time to think through the things in my life.

I think one of my purposes here on earth is to love the people around me to the best of my ability. I know that's a silly thing to say, but I really believe that it's one of the reasons I was put on the earth at this time, in this place, with these people. I'm supposed to love them- the people around me, I mean. And I've only just begun to recognize the ability I have to love. I often joke with Kc that it's not only my gift, but my curse as well. It makes me so happy yet hurts me so badly all at the same time. The one thing I have learned, however, is this: I'd rather love and get hurt than never love at all. Love is all about taking risks. It's giving in to vulnerability. When you love a person, you give them the power to hurt you. But that's the neat thing about love: most of the time, the people who love you will do their best to not hurt you. But life is life, and love is love, and hard situations cannot be avoided. But they can always be overcome. 

I've been letting my mind toy around with the concept of faith lately. And I have come across lots of definitions, but I can't seem to find one that really encompasses the entire idea of faith. It's such a beautiful thing, and beautiful things often cannot be read about. No, beautiful things must be experienced. Faith is hope for a better tomorrow. Faith is trusting that in the end, everything will be okay. Faith brings happiness. Faith is a lot of things, but most of all, faith is necessary. In order for us to be truly successful in life, we must rely upon our faith. There is no other way.

Yes, life is really hard sometimes. And yes, the tears will fall. 

But no, this will not last forever. And no, this will not defeat you.