asking too much.

I want you to tell me about every person you’ve ever been in love with. Tell me why you loved them, then tell me why they loved you.Tell me about a day in your life you wouldn’t think you’d live through. Tell me what the word home means to you. And tell me in a way that I’ll know your mother’s name just by the way you describe your bedroom when you were 8. See, I wanna know the first time you felt the weight of hate and if that day still trembles beneath your bones. Do you prefer to play in puddles of rain or bounce in bellies of snow?
And if you were to build a snowman, would you rip two branches from a tree to build your snowman arms?

Or would you leave your snowman arm-less for the sake of being harmless to the tree? And if you would, would you notice how the tree weeps for you because your snowman has no arms to hug you every time you kiss him on the cheek? Do you kiss your friends on the cheek? Do you sleep besides them when they’re sad, even if that makes your lover mad? Do you think that anger is a sincere emotion or just the timid motion of a fragile heart trying to beat away it's pain? See, I wanna know what you think of your first name. And if you often lie awake at night and imagine your mother’s joy when she spoke it for the very first time. I want you to tell me all the ways you’ve been unkind.Tell me all the ways you’ve been cruel. I wanna know what you see when you look in the mirror on a day you’re feeling good. I wanna know what you see in the mirror on a day you’re feeling bad. I wanna know the first person who ever taught you your beauty could ever be reflected on a piece of lousy glass. If you ever reach enlightenment, would you remember how to laugh? Have you ever been a song? See, I wanna know more that what you do for a living. I wanna know how much of your life you spend just giving. And if you love yourself enough to also receive sometimes. I wanna know if you bleed sometimes through other people’s wounds. And if you dream sometimes that this life is just a balloon that if you wanted you could pop – but you never would because you’d never want it to stop.

If a tree fell in the forest, and you were the only one there to hear it, if it’s fall to the ground didn’t make a sound, would you panic in fear that you didn’t exist or would you just bask in the bliss of your nothingness?