Where I've been hiding.

I've been feeling incredibly antsy... I can't sit still without feeling like I might explode. I've been trying to figure out what is causing this, and while I don't have one solid answer, I think it's a combination of all the "change" happening or not happening in my life- making me feel anxious.

Overall I've been feeling overwhelmed, there have been moments when it takes all of my common sense to not just pack up my car and head... who knows where? So to satisfy that urge to get away- I've been retreating to the river by my house. There have been moments when I suddenly feel that I might burst, so I grab my shoes and run out the door. I have been climbing the trees as high as I can before the sun gets too low and it's time to head down.

I feel incredibly blessed to live where I do, to have the retreat my heart needs- just a few steps from my front door. As I climbed a tree the other day, I paused to rest and take in the scenery. While I sat there, it was absolutely silent... nothing but the waves crashing and the wind blowing. I felt like I was finally able to breathe properly. It's been the best medicine for my anxious soul. My mind is too busy concentrating on the task at hand and the scenery in front of me to think about all of the other things that cause such static in my brain.

Things are working out, slowly but surely. But while they are still sorting themselves out- I've got the river to run through me.